Mar 26, 2009

allergies...

allergy meds need to have a new label. none of them should be able to claim that they are non drowsy. i'm drowsy off my butt! the only time i want to feel this way is when i'm at the bar. not at work. it's not even the good part of feeling drunk. it's the coming down feeling. :P
ridiculous.

my mom had a date last night! (i dont think people are supposed to know yet, so shhhh!) first date in a couple years. it went well. we shall see how this goes. i just want her happy.

canadian comes tomorrow! i am so excited. it's been 2 months since i've seen him. this will be a good week!

so long as the allergies are in check! ;)

Mar 8, 2009

marches in like a lion

my poor baby. she has her mother's ears. she has her first double ear infection. i do not doubt that it will be her last. the glow in her eyes is not there, her nose, eyes, and mouth are leaking everywhere (no, she's not teething yet. we check. everyday.) she is always tired, doped up (perscribed amounts only!) on amoxycilin and tylenol, always wanting to be held (which i can't help but do). she is miserable. and i know exactly how she feels.

when i was her age, i constantly had ear infections. single, double... i'm sure i would have had a triple infection if God gave us 3 ears. it got to the point that my hearing was severely affected. by the time i was 2, with numerous ear drum ruptures and infections, i had about 75% hearing loss. my mom still tells me of words and phrases that i said. 'a beep on my boop' was 'a bug on my shoe.' 'figgins' were fingers. i created my own language so i could communicate. i have built up such a tolerance to amoxycilin that it doesn't work to this day. my pain tolerance is so high, that i do not feel my ear drums rupture anymore. i had 2 sets of tubes put in a little after i turned 2. i hear perfectly after that. but once or twice a year, i still succumb to the beast...when i was pregnant i had a double ear infection.(not sure if i've said this before) i could not hear what the nurses, my family, anyone was saying unless they were yelling it. my hearing was so far gone - probably about down to 25% again. (and i couldn't take anything for it...)

so i am trying to make her as comfy as possible. it should be better within a few days. i hope so. i want my baby back. (i'm singing the chili's song in my head right now...sheesh!) she is trying so hard to be a happy baby. she laughs, smiles, plays....but she's not the same yet. soon though. soon.

we've had a good set of storms over the last 2 days. big lightning which means awesome house shaking thunder, lots of rain, some hail even! i hope we dont flood like we did last week, but the ground isnt going to soak all this up yet...it's only the first week of march!